The Battle of the mortal and the spirit.

It was time. She walked towards her enemy head high, shoulders back and with blazing fire in her eyes. She had been preparing for this battle for a long time. This was not her first battle but was her first winning battle.The former had involved multifarious man made strategies that seemed pleasing and victorious. They were indeed sweet suggestio falsi’s which of course wounded her instead. After all, lies will always be bitter in the end,no matter how sweet you made it at the beginning. Countless had she lost and none had she won. This was her first confident battle. She remembered how carelessly she waged war over the enemy with her physical strength. She would not repeat such a mistake again.

The ambience in the battle field was tense. The trees gracefully bowed as she majestically strode towards the villain. ‘For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood,’ she thought, ‘but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.’ This was her motivation.That it is not by might, not by power but by the spirit. As she was preparing for the battle she was sure this was more dangerous than any earthly confrontation. It was a demonic cosmic power dressed in mere earthly design but carrying wickedness. Just like any soldier she had to be fully dressed and strapped with a powerful armor. She had to strategically fight this war. Wars waged carelessly are wars lost, and the only way she was to wage it powerfully is by believing that greater is the one living in her than he, the enemy, living in the world.

There she was with the belt of truth buckled around her waist. This was no ordinary belt. It bared truth that would overshadow and destroy the deceiving lies of the enemy. Simple truths that would cast the deceiver into the abyss of darkness. Then there was the breastplate of righteousness which is the righteousness purchased by her Savior at the cross. It was issued to her at salvation and is designed by God to protect her heart from evil and deception.On her limbs were shod of feet ready and zealous to spread the gospel truth. They had the fire and the energy to take the gospel all over the world and shame the enemy.On her left hand, she carried the shield of faith. With this she would extinguish the flaming arrows of deceit, depression, grief, sickness, unemployment and the likes.On her right hand she held the sword of the spirit which is sharper than any double edged sword and penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit. She would destroy the enemy with this sword which is the Word of God that became flesh and through this word all things were made and without the word nothing was made. At the mention of the Word, every knee shall bow, in heaven, on earth and under the earth. At the mention of the word the flaming arrows will bow. To crown it all, she had the helmet of salvation. This was her most priceless possession. Without the helmet she would be vulnerable that the rest of the armor would be of little use. Through salvation, she had received deliverance and was saved from the wages of sin thus assured eternal life. This was not something she merely earned but was a gift from God.


She was fully dressed and ready but the victory was already hers.



My two friends recently asked me if I was a feminist. They had gathered from how i talk, my passion for women empowerment. I brushed off the question. Honestly, if you would have asked me about two months ago whether i am a feminist or not, I would have said I am a feminist. I however did quite some research on feminism facts and how is it upholding my christian values. Feminism is the advocacy of women’s rights on the ground of the equality of sexes. Somebody else would describe feminism as the belief that men and women should have equal rights. I totally support that. I however realized that some notions about feminism are not worth it. I read this notion that as feminists, women should not allow men to hold doors open for them. Another said that since men can go shirtless and are not questioned about modesty, women should also do the same thing.I could go on and on.These are views from different people and ideas they have placed around feminism. But what does the scripture say about this?

Scripture presents human kind as totally dependent on God and not on self. God’s design for humans is not a patriarchal society and neither is it a feminist society. The competition on who is the best in the society is never worth it. Fact is, we, men and women are different, even physically. The idea that women should be independent is okay. The idea that women should be in leadership is very much okay. No one should be denied a chance or opportunity because of their gender. No one should be despised because of their gender. What’s not okay is the idea that women should be the aggressive and angry people in the society simply because a man is higher.I believe women cannot find liberation in trying to be superior than men, they can find liberation in building themselves,fighting for what is right and becoming better persons.I love to see women in leadership and I feel so proud of that. I love to see women in business and it makes me so happy. Most of the moguls I look up to are women. What made these people be up there is not rage, anger and bitterness towards men but hunger and zeal to be better persons even in a patriarchal society. Should we fight for equality? Of course yes!But as we desire this equality, let as look at God’s design for human beings.Don’t be a bitter, angry woman who looks at the male gender and only sees competition. We are women for a reason and we are men for a reason. Fact is, there are thousands of men and people who feel women are already empowered and the conversation is too much. Fact is also there are thousands,like me, who feel we are not there yet.

All in all, Galatians 3:28 the scripture says …nor is there female and male, for you are all equal in Christ. God created man to be equally valuable and purposely different. If we value the God created both man and woman in their own image then it is only right to value both of them equally. No one higher that the other so no more competition. Only God is supreme and only Him knows why He defined womanhood as it is and manhood as it is.

What are your thoughts on feminism?

Christianity, Lifestyle

You fell; what’s next..

We all have embarrassing moments that we always hide in the closet so that no one can see. I remember one time I was late for class and I was running down the staircase. I don’t remember what exactly happened but I guess I missed a step and boom! It was a mixture of a skid, a thud , a scream and everything else that comes with all that. The position that I landed on was even worse. It was so funny that I ended up looking like I was tying my shoes and not falling. d4f87e4425a38b73cba217a11eea8d95

I remember looking up just to confirm that no one had actually seen me. I wanted to get up so fast and actually pretend I was tying my shoes. I was so embarrassed.

Typically, that’s how most human beings are. When we fall, we never want to be seen in our falls.We don’t want to display our broken pieces in the open. We want to show that perfect lifestyle, but for what!! I feel like it’s time we realize that it’s okay to fall and hiding from the outcome of the fall never solves anything. You may receive criticism when you fall, whether positive or negative. Others are just going to stare and do nothing. Essentially, the outcome of what people say may build you or break you. All in all you will learn a lesson.Being overly-protective is sometimes overly-dangerous. You may be locking out potential advice. You may get negative critics but from that you learn too.

Only God is perfect. We are humans, flesh and blood so we, in one way or another will fall. It’s okay to be seen in the fall. Embrace the moment, dust yourself and move forward.

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Imagine waking up one morning, then receiving a call from an anonymous person that your friend, your sister, your relative, your schoolmate just committed suicide.The reality of his or her death will flood so many questions in your head. Why? What happened? Did we do something wrong? How could she do this?It becomes a puzzle.Well, he/she will be already dead and you will not know how to solve it. Kate Spade, a celebrity designer, recently committed suicide. This is not the first and will not be the last suicide unless we start talking about this and reaching out to people, even with just a greeting. A few months ago I wrote a post about sinking deep and it was basically explaining  how we can get to dark  places sometimes but we still can get out. This is the link to the post,SINKING DEEP.

I have not been through depression but I almost slipped into one. In fact I thought I had depression till I found out that depression is far much worse than what i went through. Depression is a serious mental health disorder that is characterized by depressed moods or loss of interest in activities. Apart from the depressed mood one may have reduced interest or pleasure in activities, insomnia, restlessness, fatigue and sometimes even impaired ability to think. Some cases of depression may even lead to hallucinations. According to the World Health Organization, depression is the most common illness worldwide and the leading cause to death. Yes, not cancer, not diabetes, not High blood pressure but depression. Don’t get me wrong, all these diseases need to be talked about and people need to be aware but people are turning a blind eye on this particular one.

I am going to be very transparent. I have been through a period of mental mood disorder but it never slipped to depression.It was so bad, so so bad that I would never wish anyone to go through that. If only a mood disorder can cause me that much pain, can you imagine the harm depression could cause.What I went through was only a snippet of it and I didn’t like it at all. I feel like it’s time our response to such issues  change. Honestly, you can not expect one with depression to open up if you don’t reach out. We need to know how our friends are doing people. Reach out and talk. Mental health is a serious issue. If we don’t approach people and know they are are doing, how do we expect to know what they are going through. Looking back at the time I went through that mental mood disorder, I wish I would have gotten someone to talk to or be vulnerable with. Telling someone you’ll  pray for them is helpful yes, because our help comes from the Lord but as much as you pray for them, talk to them. These people are going through so much and all their thoughts can tell them  is ‘I am a failure’, ‘I can’t go on anymore’ ,’Why should i live’ ,’Nobody wants me, why would they even want me’.  It is a battle of the mind and if we don’t move now, the mind will win and eventually we lose these people.

I challenge you to day to at least talk to one person and how they are doing. You never know. Maybe you will save their lives.

If you are reading this, you are not a failure, you are amazing, you are important, you are strong, you are worthy and most of all, you are a child of God.




As a child I grew in fear of cockroaches, even the thought of cockroaches always sent a chill down my spine. True story,I once had a nightmare of cockroaches all round me like a piece of clothe. As I grew older, I kept encouraging this fear and I never stopped and thought that I could suck it all up and face my fear.I nurtured it.I have developed several fears including height but for this I have learnt to face them. I remember when i watched Anakonda the movie, I couldn’t sleep at all. I literally thought the Anakonda was under my bed so kept checking under my bed every night till i overcame it. Then there was fear of darkness. I must admit that I am still overcoming that bit by bit.

Think of fear as a roadblock. Think of it as a dream killer. Mind-Management-to-overcome-Fear-and-Phobias

We all have fears, whether of height, or of failure(I have that one too), of crowds and of pretty much anything.Fear  brings out our most vulnerable side. Fear stops us from getting to what we want. But the question is how do we handle our fears. Looking back, I wish I had encouraged myself not to fear roaches but I didn’t. I kept confessing to myself that I feared roaches even when the fear was still a little being. If I had cancelled such fear earlier,I don’t think my fear of roaches would be what it is now.

As humans beings we have acknowledged that indeed one must have something we fear, which is okay, but the intensity and the consequence of that fear is important. If that fear causes you not to achieve your dream, the you gotta scrap that off , be bold and courageous enough the face your fear. Do not nurture it. Always remember that fear is just an illusion.

“2nd Timothy 1:7, For God has not given you the spirit of fear, but of power, love and self discipline.”



I was just listening to a song by Crowder,’Come as you are’ and the it’s message moved me.  We all have so much insecurities and with pop culture everything seems like it needs perfection to be accepted to the society. I am very introverted and sometimes i struggle desire to act in a particular way so as to fit in the society or in a particular group. I’m quite certain many people go through that considering the amount of pressure put by the society to look perfect.And insecurities range from our physical appearance, to our work ethics to our ministry and even our character.635997366625152895251209269_i_am_an_insecure_mess_by_yukihawasaki-d6hicfd.jpg

‘Maybe i should act like her, maybe i should  dress like her then they will like me more, maybe i should change how i laugh or my diet or even my character..maybe i should change this and that and everything else’….And these ideas keep flooding our brains day and night for no other reason other than torture.

Honestly, insecurities bring so much damage to our real selves and we end up being a cloned version of somebody else. We end up desiring to look like somebody else, to act like someone else or to just live like somebody else and that’s messed up.

However, in the midst of our insecurities, there is someone that accepts that just the way we are, whether introverted or extroverted, whether loud or quiet, whether clumsy or careful. There is nothing as beautiful as realizing that there is one person, our heavenly father, who sees us just as we are and sees so much beauty in what we are. We need not change anything just to feel accepted. Whatever your character is, that makes you you. Someone may never like it but God loves it, as long as its good. Be you, walk your in your own lane at your own speed and you will still get to the finish line. I feel like we are now living in some sought of weird dimension where we have to follow a certain norm to just to feel accepted.But Jesus accepts just the way we are. He accepts you’re insecurities and loves you the way you are.Nothing, and i mean nothing,can separate us from the love of Christ. (Romans 8:38) Neither height, nor depth, nor any powers, nor height nor depth, or anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of Christ Jesus our Lord.

Nothing holds you back other than your insecurities.



We are all in this together..

Have you ever asked yourself what if the whole world was one country!!

Crazy right?? I personally think it would have been awesome to have one president in the world, one language.. But on the other hand, I find it so amazing that we have different cultures and we get to share that with one another. From China to Egypt to Russia to Madagascar, the list is endless, each country with their own cultures and unique in their own way. I would love to travel all over the world and experience all these cultures. Here in Kenya, we have quite a number of tribes with not so similar cultures. Sometimes our differences divide us and sometimes they bring us together. The former should not be the case.

I think God’s plan for human beings was to enjoy our differences. Whether you are African or Chinese, you should be able to walk up to each other and confidently speak love and life. Nothing should divide us.

In other news, where are you from? Let’s get to know each other



Hey loves!

It’s been so long. I took a break,not because I wanted to but circumstances kinda led me to taking the break.Law school sometimes can be so demanding. I however took that demanding opportunity as a much needed break from pretty much everything apart from my books. I remember the last blog  I wrote was a little bit of a rant and i explained of how sometimes we get to dark places and are stuck.

Taking a break has made me learn quite a lot and in fact i have noticed a lot of things I should have a long time ago.Sometimes we are so full of ourselves that we don’t notice the little things around us that deserve more appreciation. I guess that’s how life is. Sometimes we get so caught up with what we want and what we desire that we forget the little things that people do to make us happy, the amazing friends ‘our ride or dies’ that are always there even in the midst of the chaos.

I discovered the harm i was doing to people around me with my attitude in the name of ‘I am at a dark place’. We may never realize it but our character  affects our relationships with people. We expect people to understand us but we ain’t understanding the harm we are causing them. And yes it’s okay to want the attention during that trying moment but whats not okay is to weigh people down just to make you feel better. Human beings naturally want attention and appreciation. However, let’s be careful not to extinguish the flame around us that keeps us sane.

The most important lesson I learnt is to be happy and serenity will find a resting place in your heart.




The forest was dark and the the tress were wallowing in sadness.The ever vibrant peace of nature was more like piercing turmoil.  No single butterfly had wings as all of the were broken. I was drowning in the billows of life and  never realized it. It is a feeling that no one, even yourself cannot describe it. It takes you down to a path you have never been before. I remember feeling everything was just nothing. My heart was so heavy that it felt like somebody had placed a huge, huge rock on it.

Is it me or there are these seasons in our lives when everything and nothing makes sense. Everything is so overwhelming and slowly we drown in misery and grief of what we don’t even know. In the moment that we realize we are drowning, we cannot do anything about it because we have sunk deep.

The sad part is the face that you put out there in the world is so perfect everybody thinks you are okay but you know that there’s a monster screaming inside of you. I know this because I was almost sinking deep. I remember feeling that I had too much on my plate and the meal wasn’t even pleasant at all. I cried. I reached out to my mum and just wept, and by the way, any parent’s advice is always the best.

One thing I learnt is that as a Christian, not everything will be perfect. Our hearts are vulnerable and that is why we are told to guard our hearts. Our hearts are the instruments of our vocation and once they get attacked, we drown. Charles Spurgeon once said that ours is more than mental work, it is heart work, the labor of our inmost soul. When our hearts are breaking, then our labor is breaking and everything is falling apart. We then are left with the deranging inability to know any longer who you are. It is in these moments that the devil makes you believe that you are alone, that are you not enough and that everything you have been working for is nothing. Slowly by slowly, the devil eats up all our hard work and feeds us what he wants us to hear and feel. That is why people fall into depression.

Sadly this is a tactic that the devil is using these days especially to reach the young minds who have had interest in God. People are suffering from debilitating sorrow and torment inside of them. Out there what is portrayed is something different. Perfection on the outside and debilitation on the inside.

It is never going to be easy. But we have someone who is always there and sees through our struggles. He gives surpassing peace no one has ever seen. He has crowned you with love. Swim across that sea of pain and sorrow get to the shore and He will strengthen you.

Be still and know that He is God.